You'd think...

That at some point this stuff would stop surprising me or hurting my feelings. I know that my family doesn't act right. I know that they are completely dysfunctional, and yet, the weirdness always seems to sneak up on me and hurt me when I least expect it. It sucks dirt and it makes me tired.

Maybe one day they'll develop a shot for this so I won't be so sick of it anymore.

Birthday Ruminations

So I'm going to be 42 tomorrow. That sounds freaky to say, but I'm not worried about it. It just sounds a whole lot more adult than I feel most of the time. The truth is, I'm not afraid of growing older. I'm more concerned about growing old well. Healthy. In my right mind.

There's this adorable little woman who goes to my gym. She's 76, goes to Zumba every Thursday evening and drives the hottest candy-apple red Mustang. THAT's how I I want to be old. More fabulous by the day. Enjoying life and making the most of every minute. I want my legacy to be love and utter fabulosity! :)

Here's to another year. Here's to another box of haircolor and a jar of good eye cream. Bring on the years. I'm more than fabulous enough to handle ya!

New Year's Thoughts

Geez, can you believe that we're at the end of another year? Another decade for Heaven's sake! That's just freaky beyond belief. In 2000, I was a new mom and just into my thirties.

Dayum! LOL

So what have I learned this year? I've learned that I need to continue my efforts to take better care of me. I need to be a better steward of my emotional health as well as my physical health. I'm not journaling (here or anywhere else) nearly as much as I should be. Putting words down has always been a powerful tool for me. It helps me to work out stuff. I need to get back to that.

Welcome 2011. I'm a healthy, happy 42yo mom of a gorgeous 11yo girl. I have a great job that I like (most days) and I have a terrific husband who loves me. I have many more blessings than my hands or heart can hold. God is so good.

I want to keep my priorities straight and make sure I put my own needs on that list. As a woman, I'm a caregiver. Just need to make sure that some of that care trickles down to me. :)

Here's wishing all of you a healthy, happy and safe New Year. May God richly bless you with all you need and a big ole dose of what you want.

Christmas lights

Is there really anything more gorgeous or relaxing than looking at the Christmas lights in your living room when everyone else has gone to bed?

It's the little things that are the bestest.

What the season is...

... and what it isn't.



It IS about Jesus. How would you feel if no one acknowledged it was YOUR birthday?



It's NOT about 84,000 parties, 83,995 of which you couldn't care less about attending.



It IS about family and love.



It's NOT about having unreasonable expectations. Norman Rockwell probably had no intention of making everyone miserable with his paintings. He was just painting a picture. Not setting the bar for normalcy.

It's about celebrating that Jesus came and what He came to do with the people who mean the most to us.

Casting Crowns-"Praise You In This Storm" (live)

This is one of the best songs ever and a perfect one for a bad day... or a bad string of days. It was written in honor of a woman who's daughter was dying of cancer, and who chose to trust God even when her whole world was falling apart.

If she can do it, I certainly can. I'm not facing anything CLOSE to that.

I trust God... that He knows what He's doing and that He loves me.

Kutless - What Faith Can Do

This is such an amazing song. Had to share. It's where my heart is today.